my world is not right.

I haven't been writing much. There are lots of errant thoughts in my head, mostly riddled with bitterness and jealousy but nothing really of consequence. What I have come to realize is that I really wish I had a stronger family support system, comparable to those I have and see at church. I wish I had a stronger marriage. I think if more people in my life believed and loved God then perhaps it would be easier to be around them...and not feel so shunned or cast aside. As a result, I’ve been feeling inadequate lately. These negative thoughts need to just go on vacation.